So I went to my 37 week doctors appointment and it KINDA gave me something to look forward to. Well first, I was negative for the strep test, yay, the weight gain is slowing down... Thanks goodness. But my doctor told me that if I'm dilated next Monday( because he doesn't check until 38 weeks, because it could induce labor, which I'm totally ok with) we can talk about inducing me next week... Yay!!!!!! but if I'm not, well that sucks. So I'm getting a pedicure this week a massage and whatever else I need to do. Because at this point I don't need to go into labor I just need to be progressing. It's crazy to think this could all be over soon. I wish I knew how I was feeling at 37 weeks last time. Even though I blogged and wrote in my journal it's still hard for me to really understand the emotion. Today I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. I feel like my house is a mess and can never get it clean enough. Even though I'm anxious to not be pregnant I'm extremely scared to have a newborn again, along with my wild man Kingston. I'm stressing that I'll have some depression like last time.... That's not a good sign that I'm already stressed about that:). But I know I'll get through this and that this baby will totally be worth the stress. i think being induced will be crazy. Knowing when exactly this baby will be here and trying to sleep the night before...yah right! It will be a sad night for me. Excited of course but sad that it will be my last day with my first and only lil man Kingston. I hope he adjusts quickly. I love him so much... Words cant describe my love for him and the happiness me brings this family. He will be the best big brother. if I go into labor on my own with this one Like I did Kingston, I will have him this next Sunday. Woah!!! I hope my baby makes a weak sack and have strong legs like his brother... Pop that thing buddy!!! Anyways, a lot going on in the stroshine home and were all very excited/ scared for the unknown!!!! But mostly excited!
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